“Guard your heart”
“Guard your heart”
With fists and spikes
Tell myself to guard, guard, guard.
Yet,
I melt into pieces,
Small and priceless,
From your simplest glance.
In your case my spikes are blunt,
And fists are tender as a feather’s touch.
Using all my effort to
Push and shove you
Stay away from my,
Stay away from this
Cardiac muscle.
Leave it be, to pump
But love, not.
Never, love.
I rinse and repeat,
Try to shove you,
To break you,
To just yell “Stay away!”
And build walls all around my heart.
Despite my ongoing failure,
Quit, I will not.
Even more though, I try to erase you,
But you’re an ink stain on the blank white page that is my life.
Eventually I know that the ink will sink in and I will end up
Welcoming you to these bloodstained walls,
Welcoming you inside this restless muscle,
Your new home—
It will remain.
I will not quit rebuilding these walls though,
So give me no reason to mistrust you.
And I’ll welcome you today and tomorrow,
My love.