I feel your loss
I feel it oozing out of your being and devouring you entirely.
“We loved with a love that was more than love.”
Donated our hearts, desires, thoughts, and dreams for them.
We surrendered to their tenderness
We surrendered to their compassion
We surrendered to our love for their love and so
we gave it all up to keep them.
It was never going to be enough and we knew that
But it was always worth trying.
Our now hollow bodies have lost both them, and ourselves.
I know how it is
to tell me of your sleepless nights in hospital rooms;
to tell me of your atrophy
And I feel you, blood.
I feel your words echoing on my insides.
I feel you because I too have lost
I too have had to build myself up.
I continue to cement together the atoms that make me up.
Inch upon inch I am now glued together in a mosaic of destruction
just waiting to collapse,
expecting the ultimate defeat.
You speak of his good deeds and
I wish to speak of hers, too.
I mourn for her with her every inhale and exhale.
I mourn for her every time I take a look at her smiling face.
I mourn for her even as she’s mouthing me the words
“I love you.”